Aidil, my only one..

Okay,. i have one brother, my only one.. his name Aidil, kita biasa memanggilnya adek, idil, aidil, dek idil, dan kalau bertengkar ipit suka panggil dia 'Idol' (pada akhirnya ipit ubah setelah tau arti idol jika dibahasa inggriskan :p) usia kami terpaut 4 tahun, lahir ditahun 94, tepat sebulan setelah tanggal lahir ipit.

tanggal 19 mei kemarin si adek berusia ganjil 17 tahun, hohoo..
ga ada yang spesial utk 17 tahun si adek, selain untaian doa yang ipit mohon di dua pertiga rabu malam menjelang kamis fajar, apa yang ipit mohonkan kepada Allah semoga dek idil dapat hidup tenang, bahagia, diberikan kesabaran, dan selalu dijalur Shirattal mustaqim

ya.. theres only me and him who try to live survives, :)
hal yang belum bisa ipit wujudkan adalah menjadi kakak, sahabat, dan pembimbing yang baik untuk dia. Jarak karena pekerjaan, rumah dan aktivitas sekolah memisahkan kami, komunikasipun tidak kunjung membaik, thats why made me really confused..
i've no useful to him, i cant be whom he wonder. pada intinya ipit belum merasa bisa berguna bagi dia, ipit belum tau cara melakukan peran yang tepat untuk dia
apa yang ipit harapkan adalah ipit bisa menjadi sandaran bagi dia, but we've grown too strong to lift up each other, we've grown to strong to covered our self..

sometimes i wonder if our parents still alive, but its bad thinking right..
how fool i am, :(

ipit sangat mengharapkan adek bisa bahagia, punya pendidikan yang baik, punya pekerjaan yang baik, dan jika suatu saat nanti dia berkeluarga maka dia mampu menjadi imam yang baik bagi keluarganya..dan ipit akan berusaha membantu mewujudkannya
langkah pertama yang harus ipit lakukan adalah comeback to ma hometown right? :)
then, ipit baru bisa membimbing, setidaknya mengawasi dia..
karena terkadang keluarga yang dekat terasa jauh, dan orang jauh bisa terasa sangat dekat

what im going to tell is, ipit ingin menjadi sosok yang berarti buat my only brother Aidil Caesaria Aglin, sekecil apapun itu.. yang bisa ipit lakukan sekarang adalah berusaha menjadi yang terbaik untuk dia..

dek idil, SEMANGAT! my prayers only for you brader.. :)

among us there's our red yarns

along in a way there's a stops
in one of the main stops i decide to got off the train
and thats when i met you
unexpected, you found my red yarn that began unravel
then you put it together with yours, then its become strong with

you came to my life when i felt so alone and thought that everyone gonna leave me
you came along i figured my self, build my own wall, when i have no any grip, when i drown my self to my secret place where is no one who knows
you gimme your hands and offering me your side
then, what i know is i hold on to you

we're the people who have never known before, but we are together
we're shared laugh, sometimes embraced, we're shared the air, and support each other
It was the time when I was very happy

I thought I had found the right place to stoped
a place to tether my train whichs full of scratches
which getting tired struggling alone to face the storms of life

we're happy, we're spontaneous, we shared everything
and I really love you because God has brought us

heal the pain in my heart
so that when the wind blows
it wont lets me feel too hurt

I stand with you because thats my choice
and you were standing right beside me and together we looked at that road
the street where we first met
unrealized we both smiles
thats when i wish the time is stop, so we'll always be together
inseparable

But God has sent me another way
God has created our destiny
another purpose of Allah that requires me to came back on the train which would come
and continue my journey, to climbs up another mountains

when i thinking about I should realize that fate which brought me to you its not mine
but the encounter between me and you is God promised to lead us find who we are
to known our own self much better
Just like a small thing which we often do that made us happily
such kindness which we created together
Just like the good deeds that we've found in ourselves each other
which makes us thankful to have been born in this world

then Im waiting for stops in the same place
try not to cry and try give you my best smile
then when I left, theres the memories would be stay along
and when the train took me away then our story is one of which most beautiful thing that ever happened in my life

Moonsoon - Tokio Hotel

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

A halfmoon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear you name and don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey!
Hey!

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you,
I've been running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

A FRIEND IS TILL THE END

just like the leaves on the trees
then I'll fall down by myself
if the world isn't turning
and I don't know if you even realized

I've started to see you clearly today
there's no reason what we've to stay
I'm looking at you but you looking the way
that's when i saw you and realized that's nothing left to say

well, we just sat there for hours
busy with our own minds
i have no idea to breaking the wall
just keep thinking everysingle moment that we've passed by

the day is smiling and warming
but its feel burning a hole deep in
and i wont to show you if I cry
because i'll be waving you with my smile

wishing that sun keeps shining on me
wondering if i know you better
then what i'm going to do is stay
i'll be there by your side
because a friend always with you till the end

REVIEW dan FLASHBACK GARA2 SI AIII :P

Yap, here i am..hahhaa..
ok, lets do it..
Hari ini senin yg cerah, indah, fantastik ditambah lagi hari ini libur eeuuy,,hahhaa tetapi tidak secerah hati ipit yang dilanda duka karena sakit perut dadakan (O Allah sungguh aku sangat mencintai-Mu, jadikanlah rasa sakit ini untuk menggugurkan dosa-dosaku, amin)
Alhasil, ipit tidak bisa kemana-kemana dan bawaannya malas saja..

Baiklah, sebelumnya ipit mau jujur aja, sebenarnya ipit punya 3 blog, tpi 1 diantaranya udah ipit musnahkan, :)), satu lagi blog yang ini, nah yg satu lagi baru ipit upgrade kemaren setelah 2 tahun dibiarkan begitu saja, :p

Tadi ipit mengunjungi Blog saudari ipit yg sangat ipit sayangi blog-nya si Aii, :p
wahh.. ipit terkesima, ternyata blognya dia masih aktif sampai saat ini, hiks #ngiri saya, hahaha. terus..ipit juga sempatkan membaca beberapa tulisannya yg lama2 itu lho..
MIss you so much deh Aiii >_<

Hhahaa. Jadi ipit kemudian berfikir, setelah ipit kaji-kaji betapa berbedanya hidup ipit sekarang ini, ipit jadi orang sok sibuk kyknya, #atawa pane naa, hahaha.. mksud ipit terlalu sibuk mengurusi hal-hal yg lain sehingga ipit melewatkan begitu banyak kesempatan untuk mendapatkan kebahagiaan, berkumpul dengan keluarga, berkumpul dengan saudara-saudara ipit (kawan2, sahabat2. red) hidup ipit sekarang terlalu monoton, kalau bisa dirinci bisa jadi macam ini :

RUMAH - KANTOR - KULIAH -RUMAH

nah siklusnya itu terusterusan seperti itu, diakhir minggu baru ntar keluar, tapi dimedan ini ga ada tempat untuk benar-benar bersantai.. :p
disini adanya mal, gedung2, bioskop, jauuh sekali dengan hidup ipt yang dulu..

nah kalau hidup ipit sebelumnya ni, klw mau makan kita cari jajanan dipinggir jalan yang bisa duduk santai.. atau kalau ga, ke warung2 yg sekarang terkenal dengan istilah Cafe gitu tp, yg dipinggir pantaiii..hmmm.. indahnyaa..
terus kalau mau nonton ya kita cari kaset VCD, di meulaboh itu uda ga ada lagi bioskop, jadi tontonan kita terbatas tontonan di televisi aja, sesekali misalkan ada lebih uang kita baru beli kaset (tp, kita selalu usahakan kaset yg asli kq :D), nah ntar kita nontonnya barengan. Biasanya sih kalau ipit ga sama paman ipit, pasti sama kawan2 yg lain, nah terus kalau libur kita suka kepantai buat mandi lauut.. waahhh.. kebayang2 terus ini #blingblingbling, :p

I love beach so much!! kalau pikiran ipit lagi buntu ipit pasti kepantai, entah itu pantai Batu Putih atau Ujung Karang yang walau sudah diporak porandakan Tsunami tetap mempesona.. kerap ipit menghabiskan waktu disana untuk menatap laut dan burung-burung yang terbang, melihat matahari terbenam, atau cuma sekadar mampir dan berdiri sekitar 5-10 menit, itu cukup bagi ipt..

ipit sukaaaa sekali menyusuri jalan-jalan kota meulaboh. Meulaboh itu walau kecil ternyata sangat ngangeniiinn tauu..hahhaha
love my hometown :D

Oh ya, mereview nih ceritanya.. hari ini bisa dibilang hari ke-3 liburan, wah banyak ya liburannya biasanya cuman 2 hari doaang, hahhaa
iya, libur kantor itu cuma sabtu sama minggu, nah hari selasa besok itu WAISAk, nah pan ada nih hari kejepit pitpiiitt ya Monday inilaah..jadi tiba2 pas jumat sore kemaren kami dapat kabar bahwa Senin itu libur, yaah..jadilah longweekend gitu lhoo..
Mmm.. baiklah mari kita melihat apa yg sudah terjadi 3 hari dari kmarin :

Sabtu :
Ipit sama Nidatul (my housemate) berhasil memecahkan tekateki sanitasi kami yg tersumbat, ternyata tinggal didorong saja kedalam saluran air dibelakang nah teruuss keluarlah pasir2 dan air2 yg tersumbat, ternyata formulanya sangaaat sederhana, :))
terus.. malamnya ipit balas2an komentar distatus seseorang yg sudah ipt anggap kakak ipit sendiri, siapa diaa??? jeng jeng jeng jeeeng..
Ya! Kak Debora (marah terus dia mah krn ipit panggil kakak, :)))yang cemas sangat krn besok pagi itu dia mau mudik ke Bandung, jadilah dia yg ga biasa begadang terakhir tidur jam setengah 3 subuh, lha ipt.. yah.. itulah kelemahan saya, saya adalah insomniac, hiks menyedihkan :(

Minggu :
Ipit ujian lab komputer, ipit fikir cuma 1 kali aja sekaligus, ternyata ada 3 versi, 2 versi murni ipt kerjakan sendiri weeiii..dan itu sukses!! nah yg test terakhir itu ipit dibantu kawan, soalnya sepanjang ujian perut ipit sakit terus, nah yg terakhir ipit udah ga sanggup berfikir lagi trus itu betul2 udah puncaknya, rasanya ipit mau pingsan aja saking sakitnya :((, tp, kawan ipit si Elisabeth menyelesaikan formulanya, entah diapakan sama si Elisabeth, ipit udah ga perduli, yg ipit tau ipit cuma mau pulaang :((
terus malamnya ipit cekikikan bareng kwan2 Pln Cc: Deasy aka. desoye (Banda Aceh), Kak Melda (pandan), trus Bg Ganesha (palembang) nah walaupun kita jauh2an tuh, tp tetep aja bisa seneng2 seperti biasa, thanks Facebook you've connected us, hahahhaa
ipit juga chatting sama Daphne (amerika) yang baru melangsungkan pernikahannya, its beautiful wedding, then ipit juga ngobrol bareng sepupu ipit Iam (bandung) yg sekarang lgi menuntut ilmu

Senin :
hari ini ipit berhasil ngerombak kamar, hahhaha #lebaydehkamuu :p, sebenarnya ipit cuma membereskan lemari baju dan lemari buku, dan menggeser tempatnya sedikit :D
terus.. ipit bersih2kan jendela, ditelpon kawan baik ipit si Dedi teruuss senggugut ipit kumat jadinya ipit batal kuliah (minta bantuan ijin melalui kawan ipit si Lusi, hahaa) dan berakhir dengan menulis di blog ini, hahhaa
heeii.. tunggu, ada fakta menarik setelah ipit ingat-ingat, semenjak hari sabtu, minggu, dan sekarang senin, ipit terus berkomunikasi dengan kak debora ya? hahahahaa..padahal ipit sengaja ga mau ganggu pan dia lagi kangen-kangenan sama her bestfriend and her family :), hahhaa.. it doesnt matter soalnya siang tadi ipit janji ke dia buat panggil adiknya itu yg walau lebih tua setahun dari ipt dengan sebutan nama doang tanpa embel2 'kak' :p
baiklah.. tp itu ga akan berlaku buat dia wee.. pun cuma 7-8 bulan lgi kan ipit sama kak debora, ntar kangen pulaaa dipanggil kakak sama ipit, hwahhahaha

Terakhir ipit mau bilang buat my Soul Sister AIII aka. Sari Diana, How much I love you, thankyou for opened my eyes :)

something isn't right
but I decide to look forward
I just wanna enjoy this time with any thought

I wouldn't deny
my life was so complicated
and i realize all the things is a sign
let me to find my way

all that i wanna say is goodness
all that i wanna do is good deed
but i know, i can't figure it all
because i am a weak
with my sins are like wide of oceans