another words that i could find

sometimes i asked ma self
why this life feels so heavy recently
as if im feeling a little bit tired,
even to stand up
i dont know..

may i tell u that im getting tired with all of thought?
may i ?
i feel tired with all the words
because they were just symbols
that start mess me up
and has no sense

why dont You just pick me up Allah?!
because slow but sure i have no power to hold on
sometimes to be leaning sounds really interesting
but, its hard to ask someone to stay beside me
Just send me one of your guardian Allah
then let this sadness dissapear
i surrender..